What is that blinking oblong circle across my vision? I blinked but it didn’t go away. I looked at my hand and it was covering it, but I could see through it. It had a saw-toothed edge that blinked bright rainbow colors. I covered my right eye and then my left and it was still there. It felt like it was in my eye not something on the surface. Jim and I were sitting in our truck near a lake looking at places to stay after this lake. I laid the seat back and closed my eyes. It was still there but the size of the oblong circle had grown, and it was beginning to fade. By 15 minutes it was gone. It looked like a combination of these images.
We went back to the RV and I made lunch. I felt a little bit nauseous, tired, and a slight headache in the back of my head and forehead. As we finished lunch, I saw it again while looking at the floor. It wasn’t as bright but in the same place, the left lower quadrant of my vision and lasted 13 minutes. We prayed, Lord should we go to the ER? Is this serious? Is this the onset of a stroke or a seizure? I’d never had this happen.
We decided to go. The hospital in Martinsville was about 30 minutes away down the windy country roads. My anxiety was high, but I still felt a peace that God was in control.
When things are out of my control they are in God’s control.
I explained my symptoms to the triage nurse, she tagged me and led me into the ER area and room 18. A nurse came in and asked the same questions which I answered, then the ER doctor followed. He did some tests to determine if I’d had a stroke. Squeeze my fingers, touch my nose, lift your arm, follow my finger, etc. He left and I heard over the loudspeaker, “We have a possible stroke in room 18”. That’s me! Oh, no! Immediately several nurses entered the room. They moved at lightning speed. One put in an IV and took blood, and gave me IV fluids. Then another person did an EKG, CT scan and chest x-ray. They wanted to do an MRI but they don’t work on Saturdays.
All the tests came back negative for stroke, thank you Jesus, but the doctor wanted me to stay the night for observations and do the MRI on Sunday. So, I was admitted, and God blessed me with not one but two Christian nurse/PA’s. Their care was paramount to my feeling peaceful through this incident. In fact, the PA ended up having a mutual friend in Wycliffe whom we had a part in recruiting to work in Cameroon. What a blessing!
Sunday morning the PA apologized and said they didn’t have someone to do the MRI so I’d have to return on Monday, so they released me. We returned Monday to find out we’d have to wait for approval from our insurance since this was for outpatient, not ER. We went to brunch and while arriving I had another occurrence. The doctors made it clear I needed to come back to the ER if it happened again. So back we went. At least this time most of the tests had been done except another blood test and the MRI. I think the attending ER doctor was embarrassed we had to return so he was making sure I got all the necessary tests done before going home this time.
I don’t know if you like MRI machines, but I don’t. I have tendonitis in my ears so all that banging, beeping, clunking is very annoying, and the tightness makes me very anxious. Thankfully they give you a choice of music and they put on the local Christian station. The first song was one that I really like and identify with. It’s about letting go of control and just being at rest in Him. That so encouraged me and helped me keep my eyes on Him even when I didn’t think I could take another minute of it.
“Everything came back negative; no stroke, no aneurysm, no clot, and no tumor.” Wow… what a relief! We asked if it was an ocular or visual migraine since others had suggested it and he couldn’t say for sure, just that I should follow up with a neurologist in Tucson. My brother in law sent us an article with pictures (above) about migraines. https://www.allaboutvision.com/conditions/ocular-migraine.htm I’ll see the neurologist Aug 14. The ER Doc prescribed a couple drugs to help if I have the symptoms again. But I’ll be cautious using them as the side-effects from what they gave me in the ER made me really sleepy but I couldn’t rest cuz I had restless body syndrome.
What have I learned from this? When things are out of my control they are in God’s control. I’m a “why” person. Why did this happen? I have done lots of reflecting. I think probably I wasn’t dealing well with some hurtful thing that happened last month to us. I couldn’t control that and my default is to try harder to control my life, people, circumstances around me. It was not working!!! I was exhausted and probably exhausting my poor hubby too. Then add living on the road and not sure where to go next. My emotions were frazzled. This “occurrence” gave me the time to reflect, rest more, and begin to let go of the things I can’t control. To place my trust in my Father who does have my life in His hands. I am so happy to have a loving Father who knows what we need to help us back to a better place of trust and rest in Him.
Seems wise to head home and regroup without the stresses of living on the road. The Lord worked out the details to get the RV back to the owners. A wonderful friend is blessing me with a ticket to fly home from Charlotte and Jim will drive our truck back, stopping to see his dad in Wichita for Father’s Day. Only our Lord could orchestrate all this to work out. We are so thankful!
Just two weeks ago we shared in our blog about the 2nd radio devotion on Joni and Friends about ScriptureEarth.org. Just this week she did another one and its amazing! Click the link to hear it. https://www.joniandfriends.org/scott-starkers-testimony/
Thanks to her sharing, thousands more are hearing about this website and how they can use it.
One of our desires is to see the website promoted by people who have large audiences around the world, like Joni has done. God opened this door with Joni, will you pray He opens more doors?
Praise and Prayer
16 b The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
Remember that you are righteous because of what Jesus did, not because of what you do! I am counting on you righteous people to have some powerful and effective prayers on our behalf and for those waiting to hear about Him through His Word in their language!
Look at what God has done because of your prayers in the last two weeks!
Here is a 4-minute audio clip from Joni Ericksen Tada, leader of Joni & Friends. https://www.joniandfriends.org/scripture-earth/
(Below is the text of the audio)
Hi, I’m Joni Eareckson Tada and welcome to Joni and Friends.
Not long ago I found myself in a prayer meeting at an international church. When I arrived, I immediately noticed many people, all of them believers in Jesus, and they were obviously from different nationalities. Some of them were dressed in African garb, others looked Middle Eastern. One or two people even wore turbans, and I noticed a few women wearing Indian saris. I thought to myself, ‘Oh, this is going to be interesting’, and I was right. More than just interesting, it was absolutely heavenly when we all started praying; oh, sure some in English, but many chose to pray in their own language. And at the close when we sang a few familiar worship songs, the words were indescribable (actually they were indiscernible), but oh, the sound took my breath away. Like I said, it sounded like heaven.
My heart is always stunned and stirred when I hear people from different nations giving praise to God in their own language. And if it thrills me here on earth, what will it be like in the throne room of God? Revelation Chapter 7 says, “… I saw a vast crowd, too great to count, from every nation and tribe and people and language, standing in front of the throne and before the Lamb. They were clothed in white robes and held palm branches in their hands. And they were shouting with a great roar: ‘Salvation comes from our God who sits on the throne and from the Lamb!’” Will we say all speak in English, or in French, or Russian? Or will it be the language that people all enjoyed speaking together before the Tower of Babel when God divided that one language into many. Look, I don’t know what it will be like, but that description in Chapter 7 makes me want to lie prostrate in amazement!
Recently, I had that same feeling of amazement when a friend shared a link to a fascinating website called Scripture Earth. It catalogs every (and I mean every) known bit of Scripture available in every language on every continent. You can click and listen to (or you can choose to read) scripture spoken and written in all kinds of languages; those well-known and others that are completely obscure. I played around on the website for a while, clicking here and there, looking at John 3:16 written in Achagua and Abidji, whatever those languages are! It is astounding—not only to think of the variety of tribes and peoples God has created, but to imagine standing alongside them from all those nations (those people) as we praise God together. What a glorious day that is going to be.
So get ready, get started for the party by clicking on the link to Scripture Earth. And the best part – if you know someone in your town or on your college campus who speaks Vietnamese, Uzbek, Tamil, Hindi or some other way-different language, hop on the website, cut and paste a few encouraging Bible verses in their tongue, or perhaps your favorite Psalm or maybe your life verse; find it in their language, print it out, and hand it to them with a smile, and maybe a hug :-). After all, it’s a wonderful way – and a simple way – of sharing favorite Bible verses. So today, find the link to Scripture Earth below because God’s Word changes lives, so let’s do all we can to reach our international friends with God’s love, after all, I know you want them to join us before God’s throne, praising their Savior on that glorious day! God bless you today and thanks for listening to Joni and Friends.
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Jim and Judy McCabe